Veteran Dakota Meyer on @Joe Rogan Experience #ibogaine #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #ptsdrecovery #ibogainetreatment

But went down there and took the Ibogaine at like 8 p.m. at night on Friday. And I kicked in like an hour later. And it was like I was walking through this gloomy city. I was kinda like walking through a gloomy city, like overcast, does that make sense? Yeah. And I just remember I went into this one room and it was like, I mean, I could see the street signs and everything, like I went in this one room and I walked out on this stage and there was like all these people in this room. And it was like they were going by like, you know like those old slideshows, like they're just spinning by. And I was seeing these people and I was in there and I just felt this like, everybody was disappointed in me. And like I see all these people and I just felt like all this disappointment. I was like running around, like going up to people, like why, like what did I do? What can I fix? Like how can I fix this? Like what did I do wrong? Like, I'm sorry. And it was like all these people that, just people in my life, like I could see their faces, people in my life that I've tried so hard to be good enough for, and you just, you ain't gonna be good enough for them, right? And so I left that room, I was in there for a few hours and I seen this like beautiful ball light and I went to it and in it was like my daughters playing and I just felt like so much peace. And then there was like obviously like different moments of, I'll never forget this one moment in it. I just like, I almost like, cause I mean, you could see, I mean I could like open my eyes. I mean, it was really blurry, but like I was present, right? And I was gonna just ask the doctor, like I was like, I just don't wanna be here anymore. Like I can't do this. And I knew that he was gonna say, there's nothing I can do about it. So I stayed there and I just remember it breaking my ego. I remember focusing on my ego. I remember like fighting it, just like, just realizing that all this was ego, that my ego just, the best way to describe it was like, it didn't make me like, you know, like when you drink, like you kind of feel numb. This was like my soul. Like it was like, it was just, it just like, it was like my soul had gone through a workout, like a workout on it, right? Like just an ass kicking workout. And it just broke my ego. You know, like it just, it just showed me so much about my ego. And there was just, I just remember like at one point I was like, I don't care. I don't even care anymore. I don't care what people think. I don't care. Like I'm not gonna live by what people think. I just, I remember just like, just all I could just say back and forth was, I don't care. I don't care. I don't care what happens to me. This is while you were tripping? While I was tripping. And so I was on it until from 8 p.m. on Friday night. And I came out of it at like 2 or 3 p.m. on Saturday. Wow.