Day 106: Getting used to this feeling is something that takes time... Sometimes I question if it's a healthy or unhealthy feeling. We carry on either way tho.

I honestly don't understand if I'm a workaholic, absolutely love what I'm doing, or am just obsessed with the end goal. And let me explain that. So for me, especially during the week, it's hard to just chill. I always feel like there's something more that could be done that could help me just get out of my current situation. The constant need to feel like I'm progressing prevents me from relaxing. And although this kind of sounds unhealthy, when I'm actually doing the work, I love doing it. It feels super fulfilling to be doing stuff for myself and to actually be progressing towards my goals. But there's this whole thing called balance, because I'm in my 20s, I have no responsibilities or liabilities, so I should be absolutely living it up by society's standards. But in my case, I'm trying to do a little bit of both. Sometimes it feels weird living like this, because it always just feels like this need to do more, to reach for more, to accomplish more. When in reality, if you're progressing every day, that's all that really matters. What I need to get used to is just falling in love with the journey instead of the outcome. Because that way, no matter how long it takes, I'm enjoying my time, and then the outcome is essentially irrelevant, but still comes with the accomplishment. So that's my app for today. I'll be posting every single day.