Moving and being sad feels better than sitting still and being sad. #childloss #doitsad #griefjourney #griefandlossjourney #forever11 #notworsedays #bereavedmother

Our 11-year-old died, Christopher. He died five months ago, a little over. We just got home yesterday from a family getaway, our first one without him. Going there felt like we were leaving him behind, but coming home was so much worse. I wanted to trick myself into thinking we were going home to him, but I knew we were just coming home to his empty room. And on the drive home, I thought, I have to do this forever. And today is just one of those really overwhelming grief days. So I decided to take a walk and be sad, because moving and being sad just felt better than sitting still and being sad. So I'm just going to move and continue to be sad.